You can look deep into someones soul through their eyes but they still lie. You are still influenced by the the mouth with its lies and false smile. I don't mean the sort of selfish and vicious lies that I despise more the false assurances.
I believe that you can only truly get to know how someone is feeling when they think no-one is looking. Many people are very confident and happy on the surface when aware of others but catch their expression for a few moments before they see you and it can be very telling.
I am no different. On the surface I am a confident businessman who is happy and in control but in reality I am as fragile as most, don't like being alone, self conscious and prone to episodes of short deep depression.
I remember vividly catching my wife unawares one time a few years ago when we had separated in town for a short while. My heart sank as I saw her dwarfed by what looked like a massive bag. She was obviously frustrated to be painfully struggling along and overtaken by OAPs. In that brief moment I saw how she feels on days when the RA is getting the better of her and I had never this seen this side of her before. When we are together and I look into here eyes I still see the teenager I met, her being not her body, but now I studied her as you can a stranger. I waited for a few moments before walking to greet her and her eyes lit up pleased to see me as she hid her troubles again.
I hide my feelings from my wife too it's something we both know we do automatically to protect each other.
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